So Long and Thanks For All the Fish

So Long and Thanks for All the Fish

I’ve always said that when this (PS Nation) isn’t fun anymore, I’m done. Well folks, I’ve realized over the past few months that this really isn’t fun for me anymore. My new job requires more of my time than past jobs, and with my left hand not working well, my gaming and writing have severely suffered. I’m finding it incredibly difficult to even effectively play a video game anymore, and well, that’s kind-of the core of what we’re doing here. I’m always behind no matter what it is, and quite frankly, my heart’s just not into this anymore.

The other problem that I’m dealing with is the fact that my Neurologist(s) warned that I “might” suffer from Depression after my stroke, and unfortunately, that’s become my reality. I haven’t revealed this to anyone (not even my Parents) but I think that it’s important for people to know how much your mental health can affect your life. I’ve seen professionals, but it’s starting to seem that there isn’t much that can be done because of the part of my brain that was affected (meds don’t work at all, and talking about it doesn’t seem to be working either). At the snap of a finger, I can fall very deep into a sense of loneliness and despair, with no perceived way out. Things have gotten very dark a few times, and it’s been suggested that I get rid of as much stress as I can to help the healing process along. Quite literally, it has a paralyzing effect on me, and I’ve fallen into somewhat of a tailspin.

So, effective February 1, 2018 I will no longer be writing for the website or appearing on the podcast. But, I value this community more than most other things in my life, and I’ll definitely still be a part of it whenever and wherever possible (if you’ll still have me). All social media will remain active, and depending on what the rest of the crew wants to do, the website/forums will stay up as well. There’s talk of some familiar voices on our staff taking the podcast over, and I’ll be doing some things to help that process along if that’s truly what they want to do.

I’ll still be at MGC every year, and I can still coordinate events etc for sure, and we’ll still be playing for the kids in Extra Life as well. Obviously, I won’t be at E3 anymore, but we’ll see if maybe I can get my ass to PSX occasionally.

We’ve got a lot of work ahead of us in terms of responsibilities, technical stuff, accounting, etc, and honestly, this is another reason that I didn’t hold a raffle for Extra Life this year. The timing didn’t jive with the huge amount of personal responsibilities on my plate right now, and I just didn’t have enough time to try and transfer those tasks to someone else effectively.

If the crew decides not to continue, I’ll keep all of the affiliate links active for as long as possible, which can be used to keep the website/forums and podcast file hosting live. I will actively manage all of that as long as they live too.

I sincerely want to thank everyone, from our dedicated staff to our amazing community. PS Nation has afforded me so many friends online and in real life, and it has allowed me to live somewhat of a dream, even at my old age.

Also, I can’t even begin to put into words how much I appreciate the friendships that I’ve been able to build with so many great people in the gaming biz over the years. These are folks that I hope to keep in touch with forever too, but I’m sure that many of them will be happy they don’t have to put up with me anymore 🙂 Everyone has treated us so incredibly well over the years, and I still can’t fully understand why, even this many years into it.

Special thanks to my friend Jeff Rubenstein for helping us get our foot in the door at Sony, and for always having our back, even after he left PlayStation. Also, a huge Thank You goes out to Andrew Yoon (I miss you dude!) and the rest of the PS3Fanboy crew, for your guidance and collaboration when we were so young. It was a huge opportunity that, although it didn’t last very long, benefitted us in innumerable ways. Also, thanks much to the Team Fremont crew (or whatever they call themselves now) for being great friends. I wish that we still hung-out like we used to (miss you Hilden!!)

To Cade Peterson and Jack Buser, who put their trust in us idiots to start the Community Theater in PlayStation Home, holy crap what a ride! The “intro video” that Joel, Josh, and myself shot and produced is still one of my most cherished memories (eat that cheese!!). Even though I was terrible at editing video and getting something submitted on a regular basis, it was still an amazing experience!

Thank you to all of my co-hosts, past and present. Thanks to Jarrod for suggesting the idea of starting the podcast, and for giving us our most enduring meme (Minecarts yo!) Thanks to Mark for being a great friend for all of these years, and for making me feel almost like a part of the family. Thanks to Joel for bringing perspective to things, and for his continued friendship, which means the world to me. And, thanks to Josh for his persistence and tenacity. Keeping a regular, weekly podcast schedule for all of these years isn’t easy, but we did it (with only 1 exception).

Honestly, it’s been almost 11 years for me (almost 1/4th of my life), but I kinda want my life back. I never have free time at all, and there are some things that I would love to do that I’ve never had time for. Also, for me, 11 years is enough. It’s been an amazing run, but I do feel like I’ve plateaued a bit. There was never any intention to make this “my job” or for it to lead to a career in gaming. Even though a few opportunities came and went, I’m perfectly fine with how things have worked-out. The worst part is that I’m going to miss all of those great people that I only get to see at events like E3. All of the PR Managers, all of the devs that I’ve gotten to know, and everyone else at especially PlayStation that have always had our back. Simply writing this is making me tear-up, and it makes me wish that I lived closer to everyone so that I could hang-out with some of those folks again.

I want to make sure this is clear, that even though I won’t be doing the podcast or writing reviews on a regular basis, I still plan to “be around” on our Social Media, our forums, streaming on our channels, and possibly pop-in for an occasional Op-Ed or Review if I get the urge. PS Nation is in my blood, and it always will be.

I envision my future pretty simply at the moment, to use the vacation time that I get each year to travel as much as I can. I still want to drive the PCH from San Diego to Seattle, and I’d love to drive Route 66. Also, as soon as I buy a new place, I may take some steps to get into some more BBQ competitions. But we’ll see. One thing that I know for sure is that I can finally work on my ridiculous gaming backlog, and that can probably take me through another 10 years.

From the bottom of my heart, Thank You! Now get out there and play some games!

 

“The whole world is a circus if you look at it the right way. Every time you pick up a handful of dust, and see not the dust, but a mystery, a marvel, there in your hand, every time you stop and think, “I’m alive, and being alive is fantastic!” Every time such a thing happens, Mike, you are part of the Circus of Dr. Lao”

Written by Glenn Percival

Glenn Percival

Just a guy that loves games, movies, Golf, Football, and Baseball.

Podcast Co-Host, Editor-in-Chief, Video Producer, and whipping-boy

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  • Kyle Prahl

    Thanks for your warm welcome, your ever-friendly hello’s, and the time we shared at events. I loved catching up and feeling some camaraderie with you, in places and situations. that were often foreign to me. I’ll miss you.

  • Oh wow. Glenn! The PSNation podcast has been part of my weekly life for around 10 years now. I can’t imagine a week without hearing your dulcet (er, kind of) tones talking about videos games with such passion. This is crazy! But, your health and enjoyment of life is more important and I’m sure every listener appreciates that.

    I hope the PSNation journey continues and I wish you all the best in life!

  • Wow Glenn. I suspected this day was coming soon. And it is certainly an end of an era. But health must come first and hope things improve for you Glenn. You have been a friend since I met you almost since the first episode. It’s been a blast seeing you do streams, previews and cover events. Going to be missed for sure.

    But glad to see that you will be around on your personal level and time. I hope to catch up with you in the near future. Best of luck to you and the website/podcast in the future and hope it still goes strong for everyone involved.

    Best of luck Glenn and very much hope to see you around. 🙂

  • Jahonius

    I am both saddened and hopeful to hear the news.

    Believe it or not, the reason why I love PSNation so much is because when I first came across you guys back in 2013, I was in the dumps. My life, work, love all seemed to be getting sucked into a downward spiral.

    I just didn’t know how to cope.

    My favorite moments would be farming for guns in Borderlands 2 for hours and hours on PS3, while I listened to PSNation podcast (I loved that it was more than just regurgitation of gaming news on end–but more about just guys who successfully integrated their lives with gaming.)

    Somehow, now I’m much better, and I’m sure countless episodes of PSNation, hanging out at ExtraLife, and interacting over Twitter had something to do with it.

    And for that, I’m forever grateful.

    Please take care Glenn. Come visit Korea sometime.

  • Theotokis Henderson

    Sad news indeed ?? but as with anything in life your health comes first and foremost, Glenn. Even though I’m not very active on the site, I’ve always have listened to the podcast for many years. Since the PSP days. My first ever podcast ever listened to was your podcast. I follow you on all the social networks & and will continue to if you have me. I’m also glad to have you on my PSN friends list.

    I truly wish you only best in the future and hope your health gets better. I hope the podcast continue as well. Good luck to you!

  • George Nash

    Wow I have been listening to the podcast since you first started podcasting. Although I have only meet you once in real life, I feel like I have been able to get to know you through the podcast.

    I have literally listened to every show you produced.

    Good luck Glenn. Enjoy your backlog of games. 🙂

  • Thanks for nearly 11 years of nonstop entertaining podcasts! It has been a pleasure to get to know you all these years during and before the podcast from the TFL/DGR days (I will never forget!) Thanks for having me on to guest host a few times also over the years and having killer intro music on standby for me! I echo what everyone else is saying by making sure to put your own health first above all. You know where to reach me if you ever need someone to shoot the breeze with! Best of luck catching up on that gaming backlog, I definitely know that feeling.

  • John Montegudo

    Well Fuck! I am both saddened as this is a huge loss to the gaming community but
    Glad that you are taking care of your self. When I heard about your stroke I took steps to get back in shape as I lost my Dad to a stroke. I have lost 91 lbs and you get some credit for inspiring that. For an Avid gamer having a bad thing must really suck. It’s like Beethoven losing his hearing. Seriously. And Depression is no laughing matter. It is one of the leading causes of death in this country. People do not realize that the brain is an organ and like any other organ it can be affected by heat, cold, stress and infection. Depression has nothing to do with will power or toughness. So take care of yourself. I truly am saddened by the loss of your podcasting genius but I hope Josh and someone else can fill the void and if not at least I have 11 amazing years of podcasts to fall back on. Now I really want to go to PSX or something and say god bye in person.

  • Dust Merc

    The community loves you bro ,get the best care you can we hope to hear from you from time to time.
    Live Long and Prosper

  • Conrad Lawrence

    …and thanks for the memories. PS Nation was my first podcast back in 2010. This new (to me) form of entertainment was a perfect fit for my personality and lifestyle. You guys brought so much more than just gaming to the show, and although I left console gaming back in 2012, I still listen to this day because of that.

    Glenn, you’ve been a consistent part of my life for the last 7 years and I hate to lose that, but I wish you all the best. That final episode will be a rough one.

    Take Care.

  • Roger Cannon

    Take care of yourself, Glenn. We’ll miss your voice and perspective.

  • STEPHEN QUICK

    so sad, you have become such a part of my life for 10 years I can’t thank you enough. Good luck @TorgoPSN , take care of yourself, you made a big foot print on me and the internet x

  • Jan Christian Frodahl

    You`re an awesome guy, and you have given me so many laughs over the years, I can hear it in my head lol..
    I know, I need help, but the shirt with the arms on the back doesn`t come in a color I like 😉
    You guys are amazing, best tangentcast on the interwebs!
    You will be missed (what is this, an obituary??), and I am glad I have downloaded so many episodes, so I can go back and listen to old episodes, even the first 50 because I hate myself 😀

    Not gonna say I`m not sorry to see you go, but I feel like I should thank you for all your time and work for all this time.
    Listening to the PS Nation podcast has kept my mood up through the aftermath of a
    traffic accident, sickness, and depression, and I have felt less alone,
    after dumping all my old friends to get away from drugs and crime,
    ending up mostly alone, but you guys have always been there, providing
    “entertainment” (xD) and company, and it has helped me so much to keep
    my mind on other things a few hours a week, listening to reviews and the
    many many many many MANY tangents!
    We all have ups and downs in
    life, but PS Nation has been like a friend that came by once a week for a
    bunch of years,and I can`t explain how much that as meant to me.
    Thank you so much 🙂

  • AlexHelm

    Thank you Glenn! I have loved the show forever and it has been a weekly part of my life. please be well

  • Thank you Glenn, after everything you’ve given, you’re life starts and end with you when all is set and done, take it one day at a time, as Master Aqua once said, Let your heart be your guiding key.

  • himdeel

    Woah! Thanks Glenn for all your work over the years. I’m saddened and happy for you at the same time.

  • Chris Watson

    Thanks for everything Glenn, I’ve listened since 2008. I’ve enjoyed all the years. Live your life and be happy! Thanks!